FEAR THE MANGO!!!

Okay I have a phobia and guess what, its not of mangos. In fact my phobia doesn't actually have a name. So being the totally dorky person I am I decided I would mix up some latin and the word phobia and make up a name. Amiciticoreophbia. Amiciti=friends. Coreo=to lose. If you couldn't guess my fear in life is losing my friends. You know there are many ways to lose a friend, I think I have experienced many of them. Death is one of them that I haven't experienced, however I nearly did lose a friend to death just recently. It was one of the scariest moments of my life. How would you feel if one of your most comforting friends called you and said they had only six months to live? What would you say? Then there is the seperation factor. It happens when one of your closer friends takes off to another adventure and you are left behind to finish this one. It's saddening. This happens a lot more often and it hurts immensely. When I found out my pastor's family was moving I was crushed inside and words couldn't describe my grief my sadness over the loss of one of my best friends. I let tears flowthat night and it still wasn't enought to satiate my terror. Sometimes though you can let friendships fade. You can let the strength and closeness in friends drift off. Distance can help make this happen but so can laziness. I vow to never allow it happen again, but sometimes I think I already lost that battle. People will tell me that no matter the distance that I will always have a special connection and link to my friends. This is true, but there is still overwhelming sadness for the lost of time with that person. And what if that speical link is also broken? What if one of you deserts the other? What kind of sorrow will the left behind be left to feel? I read some stuff on the witness protection agency, and learned that the witnesses in these places have to get up leave all family and friends and never see them all again and start anew with nobody. I can't...I won't imagine a life having to leave everything that I have gained this year. God has given me the greatest friends that I could even hope for.

Summer is approaching ever so fast. I'm terrified of what will happen. As I have made closer friends this year than I have ever had I am determined to spend this summer with all of them. I don't want it to waste away without seeing all of these precious people in my life. And then comes the even scarrier obstacle in my life. Next year I will be a senior. I will have only one year left, and then what? What will happen? Will be forced to leave everyone? I think I would die.
Just recently I heard a great message from an inspiring friend. He preached about love. He made me realize that we need to have great love for our friends. He recited one my favorite verses. John 15:13 Greater love has no man that this, that he lay down his life for his friends. He said that the greatest love ever shown was not a romantic one but the one that friends share. I know of a story about this. Some of you may have heard of Kingdom Hearts. In the second one you may realize that as Sora finally found Kairi he was much more worried about finding Riku. It would seem as if his love for Riku may have been greater. It was an emotinal moment when he finally found him. They were very close friends, and Sora was a character with quite the heart for his friends. God has definately softenend my heart this year and given me a great love for all of my friends. I find myself so often thinking about them, especially the newer ones. I love you all with great passion and I don't want to imagine ever losing a single one of you. So for all my friends reading this, thank you so much for just being there.

Prayer to God: God you are the most Awesome. Thank you so much for the amazing gifts you have sent to me through my young years. Please Lord never let these sweet precious people ever leave my life. I love them all way too much. Thank you God for being an awesome friend as well. You are comforting and YOU are love. Thank you...for the BEST friends ever.