Let Me Have Your Pain

This weekend I heard some really sad news about a friend and it caught my attention for the majority of the weekend. I found my mind wandering the sermon during the sermon which probably wasn’t the best thing to do. I couldn’t really help it that much though. I wish my friends wouldn’t really go through so much pain in there lives. When it hurts one person in our family it hurts a lot of people. We all kind of feel some pain. I cried about it this morning. I can’t imagine what this person might be feeling right now. Actually I can a little. I have gone through some the same things, but its up to this person if they really want to talk. Anyways I really hurt for this person and it reminded me of all the pain that a lot of my friends are feeling right now and I couldn’t believe that everybody had so much going on right now. I hate it that so many people have to suffer. I really wish I could suffer for them. I remember Paul had that reaction too. He wanted to sacrifice his eternal life for all other’s eternal life to be in heaven. It’s really amazing that he had that heart. Well I can’t say I’m sacrificing my eternal life, but maybe this one. I don’t want others to hurt. I wish I could do it for them. So that morning I tried for the first time to cause some hurt. Not many people know that though. No I didn’t cut myself. Lately though I’ve been having a problem with my stomach. I feel nauseous and woozy after eating just about anything and I regurgitate a lot of my food. So that morning I stuffed my mouth with cookies purposefully. I was hoping that I would bring it back up and go through a little pain. Its funny though. It didn’t happen that easily but it did happen. And afterwards I realized how dramatic I was being. A year ago when a closer friend left I wasn’t anything near suicidal or self-inflicting pain, actually the pain that came with the leaving kind of was enough. I guess this was different though. This was a different pain for both of us. This wasn’t the other person was just leaving. This other person was now feeling a different pain that came from hurtfulness. I pray for this person and I wish they would be better and that everything would work out. She doesn’t deserve to go through this. She doesn’t deserve to be treated like this. Please God let her know that she is loved and she is NOT rejected by any means at all. We all love her so much, let her hear our love for her. I know one thing though. Superchic[k] was right. Beauty comes from pain.

Ok I guess I got some feedback about this post. Anyone reading this does not have to worry. I am NOT bulimic or have an eating disorder. I did this once, and it was because I was being an emotinoal sap and really really stupid. I just wanted to explain my feelings in this post, and I thought that might help explain them. Please stop hounding me about my problems, think about hers.

Meet My Love

the porcupines have come for you!!!
the battle between the smurfs and the porcupines has lasted for centuries
but i think the tables have turned
they have finaly figured out where your fortress lies and are on there way!
This was an interesting conversation that I didn’t have online one day. My friend is dating this guy that goes to her school. She of all people was the person that we didn’t think would ever date but her we are and she has an obsession. I guess she isn’t actually dating him but its supposed to happen sometime soon. They absolutely adore each other though. Anyways, the first time we met him was a while ago when me and her family were visiting the campus and she popped up on me that there was a guy that she liked. Talk about surprised. I didn’t know what to say. Well he is a superbly tall person that surpasses my height easily. I was amazed by his height however he was the shyest person ever. He was funny actually. We would ask him question and he would just kind of answer them quickly. He was really afraid of my friends dad. I guess he was a little intimidated by meeting the dad. Well I was polite and didn’t try and make him feel too embarrassed or anything like that. A few days later though I was talking to my friend and she informed me that her new hobby was reading along right next to her and so I wrote something really funny like how I loved him and I wanted to hold him. It wasn’t anything serious just something to rattle his chain and see what he would do. It was hilarious to see that he didn’t freak out. He just kind of laughed. So I kept it up with my little joke and I never got a real response from him. To tell you the truth I haven’t really talked to him in person at all. And then one day I got his IM address and I asked to invite him. And he responded to me while I was away from my computer and actually wrote the above statement. I was rather confused. So tell me, do you know what he means?

The Youth Unite: Jen Jen

Jen Jen Jen Jen Jen Jen Jen. Has a nice ring to it huh. And not ony does it have a nice ring but it is the next contestant on "Who's that youth group girl who is actually graduated and has left us for a college right in the middle of our year?" Alright our first clue is that she's a girl. Your second clue is that she is the daughter of the Jensens and a sister of Deanna who was featured long before. Give up? It's Jen Jen. Jen Jen is a 19 year old girl in love with Christ. With today's day and age Jen Jen has been improved and now comes equipped with a Josh, (bf i think). Jen Jen spent her younger days in our youth group being an inspiration for all. She is allergic to a million and one things and takes a habit of stabbing herself with insulin before every meal. YUM!!! Jen Jen can be seen taking several vacations to a certain island called Turltle Isle where the turtles live and so does Jen. Jen now spends most her time hanging with her books staying up till the early hour of the morning and still acing all her classes. Although she runs on nothing at all and is completely crashed by the end of the school year she moves on and does more work than she can handle. She is one of the rare Molly handlers out there and probably one of the best.

Jen has a lot more to her than just small children and tall red-headed guys. She's beautiful. But that's not what I'm getting at. Jen has a HUGE heart and a passion for God. She holds her standards high for dating (although not high as they used to be) and strictly follows the Lord in every step. She is a great encouragement and a giant inspiration for anybody. She knows God's Word better than most people I know memorizing whole chapters at a time. She follows his Word carefully and takes careful consideration into every aspect of her life. She truly follows the Lord in every way and loves Him. She's encouraging to others and faithful to all and loving to anybody. She is awesome.